Ok I know I've been gone for a long time when I have 72 deviations and 33 messages to check... TT_TT

So... for this I'd like to apologize... Right about now the only time I'm allowed near the computer is if I have to apply for a job somewhere so I'm sorry I haven't been able to get on... My parents are ridiculous.... >>

Not so sure what took me over tonight, but I'll be damned that I just got the biggest spurt of marathon writing in my life. I don't know maybe it was the freakishly big cup of soda they call a "medium" I got earlier today or maybe it's the fact that everyone here where I live just refuses to sleep but I cannot for the life of me stop writing. So I'm currently working on chapter 11 right now. There might be a chapter 12 or 13 by the time most of you read this.

My only regret about this is that I have work tomorrow. In the morning. As usual. Jeez, would it kill them to schedule me for the afternoon shift once in a while?

Yesterday, my girlfriend broke up with me.

For a while later, I set off on a quest to find some sort of self-destructive activity so I wouldn't explode. My main objective was to get so drunk that I forgot today even happened and the fact that I still love her. I would of tried something else if I hadn't eventually realized that my "get drunk" quest was not going to work out because everyone I called refused to give me a drink or couldn't. So there I stopped in a pizza hut... ate two slices, drank my soda, and ate the breadsticks they gave to me while I was waiting for my pizza.

Thanks to Arra (a friend of mine), I'm good enough now where I don't find the need to engage in any behavior of the sort (although a drink or two would be nice). So I'm writing this to say, yes, I'm in a lot of pain, but I'm gonna be all right.

Okay so, finals are here at my college, I have the sinking feeling that I'm blowing through my cash, and me and my girlfriend of 10 months are taking a break for a few weeks or a month.

So if you couldn't tell, I'm feeling really lost, depressed and overwhelmed. Without my love beside me I find it hard to do anything. So I'm sorry that I haven't updated in forever but... I've been busy between college, work, and... kinda just staring off into space. I have no idea how I'm gonna continue without "the rock of my life". Please forgive me but I'll try writing some more.

Ok sorry for the wait guys. As I write this you are looking at a message being typed by my brand new laptop!!! Sorry it took so long to get here but here it is. And almost immediately afterwards, I found I was typing. I just kept typing and editing, and adding. It was amazing that I found so many ideas that just started to flood out of me.

So I am pleased to say that I am now halfway through a chapter of Starwolf days. Don't worry, we'll get back to the beloved heroes of the Starfox team, I'm just providing a different perspective. I am hoping for the two stories to connect and I think I've found a way to do it. Hang in there guys. It'll come soon.